its a weird week
a lot of strong lingering memories
a lot of strong new ones
i cant wrap my mind around the contrast
but something still doesnt seem to sit right
“we accept the love we think we deserve”
is that why?
i cant figure it out
slowly and carefully
carved into my heart
I tense waiting for the words,
the look that cuts through my soul
she’s quiet, she doesn’t respond
did she notice? did she see what I’d done?
I hear the egg shells crack,
the glass shatter,
the drop of blood hit the floor
her spirit is soft
she sees but…
she sees differently
Hoping to cushion the blow
How can I fix it?
What should I do?
“Just leave.” it says
“She’s better off with you anyway.”
“You can’t do anything right.”
“Just because she didn’t this time…”
I wait for the snap
Forgot i had these in my wallet.. just found them while i was looking through it.. its crazy to think we met a year ago June 14. I still have a hard time reconciling all the good memories and the bad. Some days i can only remember the good and others only the bad. I love you. I miss you. I really hope you’re doing well.
She has a soft spirit
When the fear begins to trickle in
As i brace for the impact of harsh words and disappointmenting looks
I begin to tip toe on the egg shells i place for myself
Like riding a bike, this change in step now carved into my chest
Tension, fear, regret
But I look back at her and shes sitting there
Did she even notice
Didnt she see