But God.

A year ago today I made a decision that flipped my life upside down..

A year ago today I decided to tell my best friend that I’m attracted to women.

I had no idea how she would react. I had no idea if it would make a difference a all. I hoped it wouldn’t.. but in todays culture there is such a huge pressure for those who live outside of the “norm” when it comes to sexual orientation.

Long story short, all did not end well.

Of all the ways for her to react, I could never had foreseen her being so upset that I had hidden this from her that she decided to leave.

She walked away.

Today I’m facing the challenge of having to deal with many consequences of many of my actions from long ago as well as in the last day. The hard thing about life is that it never stops. There are always opportunities to make a choice and we don’t always know what’s going to happen. Sometimes knowing doesn’t change anything anyway.

But God.

But God has a plan that is so much greater than ours and the way He has used this sad event in my life has been amazing.

I’m still hurt. But I’m still healing.

He will always love me more.

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