As one story ends, another begins.

There are two different things in my life that God has used to shape me into who I am today. The first being the unique family dynamic that I have grown up in and the second is a sin that I have struggled. Not many people know about this struggle that I have faced; it is something I have long hidden from even those closest to me. But this year, everything has changed.

Both of my parents work and my mom is also in school, so I have grown up helping take care of my little brother and sister a lot. Over the years I have become more of a mother figure than a sister to my siblings. My motherly instincts kicked in at a young age and I was forced to grow up fast. All of these things led to me working with kids. I would babysit during the school year and nanny over the summers for other families while still helping my own.  Having moved away from home, I am taking care of kids a lot less and it has been interesting to see how God is now working in other ways in my life.

“In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.” 

– Proverbs 16:9

The second thing that God has really used to shape who I am is my struggle with homosexuality. With this struggle, I have lived the first 18 years of my life confused about who I am and what it means for me to be both a follower of Christ and be attracted to women. My life has been 18 years of an identity crisis. But everything changed this year. This part of my life is a much longer story that is still only in its first chapters and I am excited to see what God has planned. For now I will leave you with this: My identity is in Christ. He is my Lord and Savior. In all of the questioning and confusing, I know that to be true.

“For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.”

– Philippians 1:21


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